Nobody talks anymore?

[Peter Brev]

I don't.

[JoshN0S]

It's alright. Whatever let them talk. Always thought to want attention, never once were my feelings considered.

[Aya]

Today happened to be your "bad day" so now you wanted to talk.. hmm.
All chat msgs all by yourself, 3 msgs in a row on this forum,3 msgs on my profile,1 on my group profile and this triple posts thread.
All these happen in under an hour. Doesn't this sound crazy to you?
Was I ignoring you? -No.
I was just busy killing zombies as usual.
Why that 30mins me not replying (I said hi tho) fucks everything up?
Also,the reason I can't help you is your problems never seem to be clear.
I really don't know what to do with "Something happened in my life and right now I'm in the very dark place depressed,life sucks and I just wanna die" kind of comments.
And this happens pretty often,you rage on dr over little kids,you say you will leave steam/dr for a while...and it all comes back again in few months.
I just don't understand the feeling of people don't talk to me today so I just wanna die especially on internet.
For me,all these emotions are unnecessary and would like to keep the good energy.
Sorry,I'm very cold but I really don't mix the real life and Steam.
I really don't know what to do and I really don't think I'm the right person for you.
As Blagho said,I'm not your personal therapist and I'm not willing to be one.

[SuperNovaX]

Well on Monday I don't have to be at school until like 11 but I might go in sooner so if you need someone to talk to just message me and I'll reply unless I went to school early for something but we'll see. But here pretty soon I'll probably be working at least part time some days but I am not sure yet. Also might be busy with a project soon so I might not be available as much for you Josh but since you are special I can try. Best of luck with everything dear.

[JoshN0S]

Today happened to be your "bad day" so now you wanted to talk.. hmm.
All chat msgs all by yourself, 3 msgs in a row on this forum,3 msgs on my profile,1 on my group profile and this triple posts thread.
All these happen in under an hour. Doesn't this sound crazy to you?
Was I ignoring you? -No.
I was just busy killing zombies as usual.
Why that 30mins me not replying (I said hi tho) fucks everything up?
Also,the reason I can't help you is your problems never seem to be clear.
I really don't know what to do with "Something happened in my life and right now I'm in the very dark place depressed,life sucks and I just wanna die" kind of comments.
And this happens pretty often,you rage on dr over little kids,you say you will leave steam/dr for a while...and it all comes back again in few months.
I just don't understand the feeling of people don't talk to me today so I just wanna die especially on internet.
For me,all these emotions are unnecessary and would like to keep the good energy.
Sorry,I'm very cold but I really don't mix the real life and Steam.
I really don't know what to do and I really don't think I'm the right person for you.
As Blagho said,I'm not your personal therapist and I'm not willing to be one.

the way you quuote "bad day"
Aya this has fuck nothing to do with dr. Im sorry but im not holding emotion back this time. Yeah I admit, I went over the top with messaging. I aplogize for that. But DR has nothing to do with whats going on right now. That's the first place I went after I got home, and I had some fun with noob and we played portal 2. Im not going to say anything pitifully stupid but about your 'im very cold' comment. What about those other times you helped me? Was it just a coincidence? This is a side of me I don't like. Im not even going to leave DR or Steam this time. Im going to cool down while im playing. If you want to talk fine, if not, fine. At this point I need to re-think again, but without going away. I really don't give a crap about what blagho said. Now you know the truth, I'm not that nice, but It's me. Look im not just having life problems. I have a bunch of work and stuff like that now, as i mentioned in my other two posts. F.Y.I. your not the only person I went to, I went to ryu, snoap and noob for help as well. That's to clear up you being my therapist comments. Don't take this reply as the real me though. Because this is a side of me when im not in a good mood. I will cool down and when I do, I will tell you what is on my mind. The life problems... someone close to me was in terrible condition. What made things worse? As i was walking back to my house from school, said person, was being wheeled out on a stretcher. Infront of my eyes. IN FRONT of my eyes. I know you don't like to mix steam/real life, but I turned to you and my closest friends because its what I usually do. Im gonna end this rant now before it gets even stupider.

[myback]

I hate Mondays. and I'm pretty sure everyone is just getting too busy to respond.

[Peter Brev]

When you talk to Aya but she's not responding immediately, most of the time, it's because she's using the beast weapon to bezoing the zombies in KF, so it's self-explanatory here.

She always responds to you after a certain time, so no need to press caps lock and spam the Steam chat like if she was ignoring you.

[JoshN0S]

When you talk to Aya but she's not responding immediately, most of the time, it's because she's using the beast weapon to bezoing the zombies in KF, so it's self-explanatory here.

She always responds to you after a certain time, so no need to press caps lock and spam the Steam chat like if she was ignoring you.

I understand what you are saying. I realize what I did was wrong, I didn't caps lock though. I let my own emotion do this for me this time. When I finally got control of my emotion, that's when I went to Ryu, Snoap and Noob.

[Aya]

Instead of giving you a fake "I care for you. Let me get on the plane right now to go give you a hug" message,I stay true to myself and being an asshole.
I rather not say 'You're special' to you because that's also sounds fake as hell since I'm drinking smoosy with my friends or family while replying to you.
You're 16,you need to stand on your feet.
Seriously,do not act like a you're the only unhappy person in the world.
I lost my friends in Great Hanshin earthquake and I was 11.
I lived at my school for a while because of that.
I've never seen my grandpas.
My ex was sleeping with my co-worker behind my back for over 3 months.
My ex died about a year ago as 38yo.
Things happen.
Of course,things are in different levels and you might say you have went through more tough stuff.
But how you handle could be different.
You definitely don't need to mess up other people's day.

Sorry I'm not good with chat but I'm not living for that.

[Peter Brev]

Well, after our conversation in Steam, I believe you understand your mistakes.

You know what you got to do now.

[JoshN0S]

Instead of giving you a fake "I care for you. Let me get on the plane right now to go give you a hug" message,I stay true to myself and being an asshole.
I rather not say 'You're special' to you because that's also sounds fake as hell since I'm drinking smoosy with my friends or family while replying to you.
You're 16,you need to stand on your feet.
Seriously,do not act like a you're the only unhappy person in the world.
I lost my friends in Great Hanshin earthquake and I was 11.
I lived at my school for a while because of that.
I've never seen my grandpas.
My ex was sleeping with my co-worker behind my back for over 3 months.
My ex died about a year ago as 38yo.
Things happen.
Of course,things are in different levels and you might say you have went through more tough stuff.
But how you handle could be different.
You definitely don't need to mess up other people's day.

Sorry I'm not good with chat but I'm not living for that.

I don't mind you being an 'asshole' if thats what you're implying right now.
You're only speaking what you believe.
It's the truth, and I have no right to say it isn't.

However I would like to talk to you tomorrow.
Not about this, but just an ordinary conversation.
Not as us doing what we did when we went :3 <3 and all that back and forward.
I just want an ordinary conversation.

Edit: I am sorry for those losses, but as you said its in the past. But to answer your 'question' about me thinking about me going through worse, I don't think I go through worse than anybody, I have never had a great life though. But I do not think that I have it worse than anyone, at least the real me doesn't. Maybe the pitiful depressed me who I let take over me does, but me, Joshua Lee Hunter, does not think he has a worse life than anyone, and that is the god damn truth.

[Aya]

Since you mentioned about your "feelings",you should think about other people's "feelings" too.
You might be on Steam like you are on facebook so you wanna talk with people.
But some people are on Steam like we are playing in the arcade.
You should think how people would feel because we are not there to hear people bitching about some "real" stuff and we are there to have fun.
I was still willing to listen to you but I won't be getting on your emotion roller coaster because I didn't reply on your pace.
Now I feel like I really need to get away from whole steam chat thingy.
I will make sure I'm offline except when I invite/join people or feel like to talk so you don't need to wonder if I'm gonna "ignore" you or not.
Sorry but I have to do this since how we use chat is different and I don't wanna make another drama out of it.
I go to sleep now.
I'm fucking exhausted now and this is another thing I hate to be happen over fucking Steam.

[Peter Brev]

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100% seems about right.

[SuperNovaX]

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100% seems about right.

I feel special because I noticed King Kong before I looked at the girl and her boobs .